Last 6 months have been really challenging for me. I knocked many doors, sought different paths, but I’m more miserable than ever before
Tomorrow is initiation day. Tomorrow is the 5th day of Isha Inner Engineering program and this is the only hope left for me.
My mind is in conflict, by body is aching, I’m having fever and cold, yet I want to be there tomorrow, and give my 100% – because this is the only hope left for me.
I was sitting in front of Jesus picture, in the hall, tears rolling down from my eyes, because the suffering seems to be never ending and no hope in sight
But then, joining Inner Engineering course, meeting Darshan today and learning about spirituality, all seems like a dream. I mean, what are the chances of these things happening. If it was not for him, I wouldn’t be attending tomorrow class
I realized, even though how much you may be advanced in spirituality, when you have the right people in your life, miracles happen
I’m so looking forward to spend my whole day tomorrow, on the company of people who can uplift me, guide me, and show me a new path
Last time I felt a bit happy was after talking to Sri Harish, but then, he tends to be busy and I really really need the right tools ( read as spiritual practice) to deal with the challenges of my life. Or else, very soon, I will be completely lost.
Before ending this post, I want to say something: never lose trust in God. I am saying this because out of my personal experience.
A few weeks back, I was standing outside and I had a message that I will get a new friend, and that I may get to work with him, as a free lancer. I will go to his house and we will work on lot of things together. It was just an amazing thought and I was filled with joy. I’m sure, the ball has started rolling and the plan is already under way.
